Chapter 18: The typical reaction of a 28 year old single towards love

This is not a story about romantic love. At least.

disclaimer: I think this will cover different aspects of everything, apologies for having a scattered content.

I had people to take care of me. I am not complaining because I am grateful and blessed to come this far with people giving me love more than I could have imagine.

But...

As I grow older, I saw how the world is...and I am not sure if people would understand but yes, it still feels different to live without a mom.

It is tough to be alone but I think that is how the world goes right? You cannot have anything that you want - or need in this lifetime.

It would sound funny but my life goal was to have a complete family. I want to experience how to have a meal with a complete one and when someone tried to promise me those things, I was head over heels.

Someone told me he also wants to have the same thing, naive as I am, I believed it. Thinking that if it would happen soon but overtime, as the hardship is too much to bear and I decided to leave.

Chances after another was made to make things work out but obviously, it didn't.

Anyway, growing without a mom was hard but the people around me make it easy.

Learning to survive in the desert country, I realized that being independent is a must.

After all the f*cked ups that had happened last year, here are my reaction towards life:

1. I am still blessed to I realized that loving myself is far more important than anything else.

2. Love is a two way sword.

3. People come and go. The best way to have no regrets is to live every moment with them.

4. People have limitations. Do not abuse their kindness for being selfish.

5. The best way to heal is to forgive your self and acknowledge the fact that you messed up and try harder.

6. Make your dreams as a reality. It would be hard but it is worth it.

7. Never let depressing moments bring you down. You are better than this.

So yes, there is a part of me that is sad for seeing my friends having a good time with their partner, getting engage, posting wedding images and having babies but hey, there are still a lot of things that life has to offer. Right?

There are still things that I am beyond grateful to have.