Chapter 5: No more dating GAMES

Setting: Beach (walking)

Him: Hi, How are you?

Me: I don't want to talk.

***end of convo***

Many people often believe that having a relationship is the key to happiness. I will not be a hypocrite, because I am seeking one too but as my journey goes on and on, I then realize that 'maybe it is not the only way to be happy'.

I witness failed relationships. People wants to have divorce because they fall out of love or they didn't knew each other well and the 'spark' (if ever there is one) fades away.

I experienced heartbreaks in many form (not just romantic ones) and as these situations continue to repeat all over again, I think it is time to give myself the love I keep longing for.

I didn't chose to be single before, but I do now. It becomes my comfort zone. I somehow found peace. Kicking people out (sorry people!goodbye past!) and choosing myself is one of the liberating thing to do. Distancing myself to some special people (note that I still love you) to make whole again is peaceful (but not entirely).

So how am I coping up with everyday without these 'baggages'?

Hey, there are plenty of things to do to be happy. Don't stress yourself out finding 'the one' or having this idea that 'romantic love will make me happy'. 

Yes, it is true that sometimes you need to look for it. I mean life will not always give you a lemonade (or your favorite drink) right? All am I saying is that if this 'search' will lead you to anxiety and stress and overthinking - if it means sabotaging your inner peace, do you think it is still worth it?

The right person will come along at the right time.

For now. Why don't you just do the things that makes you happy. Who knows, maybe he/ she is doing the same thing too.