For the former things have passed away

“And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.” -Revelation 21:4

My heart has been shattered to pieces so many times that I could not count it with my finger.

I've been frustrated with life before that it becomes a habit and a routine. 

I want to tell you a secret that I have been keeping for a long time now; a secret that I have been hiding even to myself but I think I should start letting it out now.

I have been feeling incomplete for sometime now but do not get me wrong on this part - I love my life and all the people that is revolving in it. I love what I am doing and I must say that I am starting to enjoy what God has given me but almost at the end of the day there is something that I have been longing for so long.

"I smiled so the hurt won't show and tell everybody I was glad to see you go." 

I cannot remember how you left or how your face looks like but every time reality hits me, it hurts big time. It hurts thinking that we should spend more time together and get to know each other but it is time for you to go and there is nothing I can do.

"If I can turn back time, I would have never let you go."

Would this be applicable to us? Even if I have a time machine He is still the one who will decide if you will stay or not.

"Forgive and Forget"

I thought I can but I cannot. I know you don't like to hold a grudge on someone but I just can't help it but I am working on to be a better person. Baby steps at a time. I cannot explain how I feel but I just do not want to be left out - and that is exactly what he did. I know you are sad to here it but I must be honest to you. The truth will set you free right?

"I wish you were here"

I really do. If wishing every shooting star will make it happen, then I would attempt to live in the universe and watch the stars fly hoping that once day, you will be here again. I wish you never left. I wish you could see how am I doing back here. I wish there is one moment in our life that our paths will cross again.

"See you again"

In my dreams perhaps? I'm sorry because of what I feel. I tried. I really tried and every time I tend to forget all those things that happened during the time that you left; It still breaks my heart and it will always will. He unconsciously breaks my little heart.

"Let time heal all the wounds"

Maybe. Just maybe. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.