"I love you at your darkest"

Dear Papa G,

A lot of things happen this year and not all of them are good and positive but I would like you to know how grateful I am that you let me experience those things in life. I would  like you to know that even though I still do not know the reason why I went through all of those heartaches, family issues, financial struggles, career confusion, friendship breakups and the list can go on, I still believe that its for the better.

I still do not know what life has to offer me and all I know is Your guidance can help me get through this. Even if life throw rocks at me, even if life drowns me, even if life lets me experience hurricane and thunderstorm; I will still (try to) remain strong and let You lead the way.

But I would like to be honest with You. I am scared. I am scared as hell. There is still a point in my life that I feel like I do not want to continue the journey that you made for me and I just wanted to leave and run away. I had so many chances to escape but every time I tried, I always end up in Your way.

Thank you for this year. Thank you for helping me grow as a person and making me realize a lot about all aspects in life. I know I will face tougher situations and there are times that I will feel helpless and depress but help me see the good side of everything.

Thank you for being my sunshine in every sleepless nights. Thank you for still staying at my side. I'm grateful to have someone who will still love me at my darkest.

I love you too.

Your daughter,

Anj